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占有欲

打从一开始,我已经知道,我是一个占有欲很强很强很强,很无敌强的一个女生。 我想要占有:- 不只是你的想法, 我更想要占有你做决定是最终的原因是我; 不只是你做的东西,我更想要你做任何东西都是因为我,不是另外的人。 不只是对我好,我还要只是对我好,更不允许对任何一个人比我好! 我不喜欢与别人分享一个男朋友。 所以我很在意,为什么我男朋友听妈妈的话做决定到底要不要离开firm. 我很在意他为什么听别人说韩国买不值得而不买,而不是听我长篇大论后直接就决定 我很在意为什么他问了我的意见,再问他妈妈意见的时候,他因为他妈妈说的话,而改变主意! 我希望, 我是他的独一无二 他听我的话做决定!因为我的话而决定! 虽然有时候我觉得他很难做人,但,人家真的占有欲很强啊!!!!

Emotional Blast

It was a complete complex feeling. I feel like I been complaining very much in the relationship - " Guilty" I feel like I been very emotional in handling conflict. I tend to victimize myself. - FML I feel like it has reach the top of my bottle - " Angry" I feel like I don't deserve to be ignored when i express my feeling, yet, I still being ignored - "Disappointed"  I feel like I am not being understand by someone who called him honey - " Hurtful" I feel like I am not perfect enough to be with him - " Sad" All the mixed and complex feelings rushed in my mind, my heart and my emotion totally out of control. I shoo out all my feelings by typing it out to show how angry, how hurt, how dissapointed, how sad I am. But i realised, it was merely on my side emotion, because after typing sooo much, I was being totally ignored. That make me even hurt and dissapointed. To a certain extend that I wish i could put a fullstop to...