Fairy Tales Do Come True

The previous post was full of negative vibes and thus he gave me a thumb down! So today I am going to have a post with all the positive vibes to make his Friday more cheerful and happy. I been telling him that I am his happy pills when he is sad / down; im also his heal pill when he is sick; Im also his everything pills. Each time when im with him, I tend to talk a lot, LITERALLY A LOT. I can talk to him about everything from the sky to the ground. We will also laugh like mad each time when I made joke, or vice versa. I believe we enjoy the existence of each other? One of my friend share with me a article and the title is “when is the right time to get marry?”. Personally I do think that the right time is when both of us have been so familiar with each other and we have shown each other the ugly truth. He knew how disgusting am I and so am I. *hinting* I love the fact that he will accompany me to walk around the mall with no purpose, but mostly will end up with a purpose of b...

There are certain point of time that I feel like I am so fed up with him. Each time when I am unhappy, I will throw tantrum at him. I will show him my black face, I will not talk to him, and worse is I dont give him face. LOL! After a year being together, we have been in this mode whereby when I am angry, he will just keep quiet. However, sometime I do feel like "why dont you pujuk me?" but sometime i will also dont give him face, when he pujuk me, I will say "shut up" / "go away". LOL which make both of us so awkward. But each time when he unhappy, i will be the one who angry at him. I will tell him "how can you do this to me?" "why you so blur?" "why you this?" "why you that?" So at the end of the day, he has to appologize, no matter he is of the correct side or wrong side. At that point of time where I will burst everything out then he will be the humble one who blame everything at himself. Heheee.. #win. ...

I always asked him random questions when he fetch me back home.  So today, I’m going to answer those QnA instead.  The most common question that I asked. I believe I asked like more than 3 times before?  Do u ever imagine ur life if u never met me?  Hmm, life will be pretty routine? Work-home-tv-sleep and repeat. When I’m sad I will just cry and will keep memerizing my past relationship?  Do u ever imagine that both of us will be together? NEVER!  As I said before, I told myself that guy younger than me are going to suffer with me lol. He don’t attract my attention at all before this and I find that he is too shy!  Do u think that we will last long?  I dare not say anything but I hope we will. but we don’t know what will happen in the future  Tbh, I’m really thankful that he is such a wonderful guy who can tolerate almost everything about me, except once that he raise his voice over me. Hmp! 

It been a year of knowing him. Everything seem to be like "eh, the same day last year... this was what happen.." Remember back then the 1st time we chat (like officially) was right after his admission to bar. I texted him "congratz" and that's how we started everything. It was May 2017 . It was mother's day! He has family gathering at KTV. He recorded some videos for me to watch. tbh, at that time, i actually already off light and watching tv while waiting time to sleep. Remember it was around 11+? (yea, i slept early last time). He asked me at the same day "what time normally u sleep". instead of telling him "actually i should have slept by this time", i replied "it depends". HAHAH. die die must tell him as if i dont purposely stay up to chat with him. :P and May 2018, Mother's Day . I went to their family gathering with his maternal side at machap. it was 20.5.2018. He purposely bought me a cup of no sugar milk...

So much emotions these few days / past weeks. Having these mixed emotion ever since the day he was admitted to Hospital for the 3rd time with extreme worse condition and after doctor gave the advice of getting ready for something bad to happen in any time soon. The pain of losing someone in our life is somehow very painful; no matter with or without any hints / any preparation to it. Ever since He fall down from stairs, we knew the condition is not going to be good, but personally for me, things happen too abrupt. From he able to talk / to raise his hand to say hi and nod his head when I visit him in hospital, to the moment he cant recognise me, to he only able to open his eyes for 15 mins to less than 1mins, to he cant even open his eyes to respond to surrounding sound, it took less than 3 months or maybe 4 months.  My heartache each time i see him suffer from heavy breathing and gasping for oxygen. Remembering back then, I told Andy, see how lovely he is, he hold his wife...