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Do You ever wonder whether Fairy Tales do come true in our life?

It was very unexpected that I fall for someone like you... 

To be honest, I do struggle at the beginning wondering whether this love story will end up like how all the other love stories do. 

"Love do fail"

In the year of 2015, I fall for someone who told me "love never fail", but we prove that love fail when lack of communication, and commitment in the year of 2016. It hurts me so bad that I not sure whether I could love again. 

In the year of 2017, I decided not to look for my prince anymore because Love hurts, I do not want to undergo the same process of falling in and out of love again. To be someone's special in a one day and to be someone's stranger the next day. The words uttered and the actions showed from the beginning until the end, I couldn't believe those words and actions are from the same person that said "I Love You". 

I'm a perfectionist in relationship. I couldn't accept doubt, i couldn't accept issues/problems. I tend to wanting to solve it on the spot, not to bring it to the next day. I hate it when someone avoid problems and not solving it by sweeping it underneath and tell me "I'm Sorry" without knowing the reasons behind all the anger and the disappointment. Not too sure whether this "perfectionist" character is actually a killer in every fairy tales? What if I'm not a perfectionist in relationship? can the relationship works out it way?

"To give Love another chance"

The struggle in the beginning is real. 

"Hold on, not to fall again" is something that i told myself repeatedly throughout our conversation. 

 Trying so hard to understand / to know about him before i commit again. But truth is, his actions touched my heart, his words and actions heal the broken pieces. 

It is hard to hide my smile each time we msg each other, It is hard to hide the excitement each time when I get to see him. 

But after all, I afraid that i only discover "something" after I commit again. But he reassure me again and again. From an unofficial relationship to an official relationship. It doesnt take much time, but i believe the foundation we built, could last us to the end(?)

"I melted each time I see you"

This was the sweetest sentence i ever heard.  Never a person tell me something like this. I melted when he could stare at me and tell me that. 

I can see the love in his eyes that I tell myself, this guy is real, this guy loves me. 

I love him for various reasons, especially when I am his priority in everything. He handle me carefully, he handle my heart with extra caution that reassured me that he is the right person. 

I love how he love all my candid photos even though i look stupid / ugly. LOL. 

I love how he being so honest with me.

I love how he willing to discuss everything with me.

I love how he willing to share everything he see in his daily life with me. 

I love how protective he is when he is with me.. 

I love everything about him... 

I sincerely hope that he could be the last because i believe that i picked a gem. (': .

24.6.2017 - a day to be remembered.

Happy One Month Anniversary, Love.