Aloysius Pang 1990-2019

"黑色，它不是冷漠，反而是一種保護色，遮蔽所有脆弱。

黑暗中所流的黑色眼淚不會被看見，悲傷也唯有留給自己… ‘’

Life is fragile.

We know that fact, but it not going to affect any of us at any point of time until something trigger.

The passing on of Aloysius Pang do wake me up from the slumber life that I have been living in.

It does makes me realised that :-

1. Life is so unpredictable, at this moment, this second, we are healthy, but no guarantee that the next second, whats going to happen (he been texting his gf, sending photos of himself to the gf, but god knows, next day, he suffered serious injuries and have to fight with it for 3 days until he return to heaven to be the brightest angel). To me, it is much easier to accept it when it is due to sickness. At least, you are given the warning and time to express what in your mind to your love one.
2. The love story of aloysius and Jiaqi has been the highlight of this whole incident. Viewing Jiaqi's Instagram's stories, it broke my heart. Imagining myself in her position, I don't see myself to be able to accept it like how she does. Much positivists that she portray to everyone that she is handling this well. yes, undoubtedly that it hurts her the most (and Aloysius' parent), they might be crying and feel the unfairness the strongest. But, like what she said, the worst has happened. Its time to celebrate for him and believe that he is in a better place now. The worse part of the love story was, it was an underground 4 years relationship that they only intend to announce it after they get married, but, it is not a happy ending, yet it is a bitter sweet memories for her, forever. Both me and Andy came to consensus that no point to keep showing on facebook / instagram about our relationship, whats most important is the strong feeling we have towards each other and the urge of wanting this relationship to last forever and ever. One day, we will invite everyone to celebrate with us for our ever lasting relationship.
3. Since life is short (perhaps, its not for those who die of old age), do everything to your best ability. Been telling Andy that, lets be kind, lets be caring, lets be proud of whats we doing now. Focus on our life and dream and strive for the best.
4. We are going to die one day. But dont die without the flame. Do your best so that everyone going to remember you for what you have done in their life.
5. at this point of time, everyone discussing about you, but after 3 months, half year or even a year later, no one going to remember you if you are just a potato. Lets do things that everyone going to remember you and have the best memories of you in their life.

Last, Thank you Aloysius. The Charming star on earth and in heaven.

To Jiaqi and Aloysius' families, Aloysius is now in better place, he will be the guardian angel for all of you. stay strong at this hardest time.

p/s : told my office's chambee that, I do research for this incident more diligent that research for my submission.